I need to talk about something special. It’s pretty hard to explain and describe, but I just have to try. I need to write this down.
There’s this feeling I can get sometimes, when discovering a song. It happens very rarely. The first time I hear it, I can relate to it with what I’m going through and the song kind of takes me to another place. I just get really obsessed with the song, and I really feel “with” it, even though I’ve only heard it once or a few times.
It’s during that time when I don’t know the lyrics by heart yet, there’s still a lot of details to discover and it’s really mysterious and new and exciting, but in a very deep, emotional, almost scary way. And the song is overwhelming and breath-taking and I just sit and listen to it while crying or having a strange stomach ache. It’s very powerful, and I just know the song will be my drug from then on.
However, this feeling wears off after a few weeks, when I know the song by heart and I’m kind of used to hearing it. I still love the song, but I just don’t get that feeling. And even though that feeling is very scary and painful, it’s very addictive and I just want to feel it again.
The first time I got this feeling was when I started listening to Rosetta Stoned by Tool. The second time was when I heard Pushit (the live Salival version), also by Tool. Then it was Trains by Porcupine Tree (I was a mess back then, so that experience was… unexplainable). And then, Touch The Sun by Opus Däi. After that it was My Ashes by Porcupine Tree, and finally Deform to form a Star by Steven Wilson, which was just a month ago.
So it doesn’t happen very often at all, which is very sad. However, having this kind of feeling is almost like some sort of sickness. I guess I’m better off without it. But not really.
I just can’t explain this with words, it’s impossible. But I hope someone understands at least a bit of what I mean. I can’t be the only one who has experienced this?
